ABOUT (MY STORY)
Hi there, I’m G (they/Them), or Calicoco
Hurting, Shifting, Healing
I'm 34 years young and rebuilding my life as a musician and artist.
A few years ago, I put music aside. I was in pain, isolated, and disconnected from who I was.
People pulled away, and I pulled away too. It felt like I lost everything.
But over the last year or so, something shifted.
I gave myself space to heal and grieve the life I thought I had. I started facing parts of myself I had ignored - shame, regret, anger, fear, embarrassment, sadness.
It's been hard. It still is. Healing is ongoing - and always will be.
But little by little, I've found peace in the chaos. I feel more grounded and in tune. More open. I'm connected to myself in ways I never imagined I could be. For the first time, I actually know who I am.
Starting Over at [Almost] 35
What I went through broke me down, but it also gave me clarity.
One big shift was changing how I viewed everything. I don't look at it anymore as "this happened to me."
I try to see it as "this happened for me."
For me to build a life that's real and filled with things and people that are truly aligned with me.
Every part of me.
I used to think pain was permanent. I thought I'd be stuck in it forever.
But I've learned pain is fluid.
It moves. It shifts. Sometimes it still stings, and sometimes I still slip. But it is no longer in charge.
I'm learning to move through the world without letting pain lead. And I’m learning to be grateful for it. Finally facing my pain didn't destroy me. It freed me. Starting over isn't about erasing the past. It's about integrating it, owning it, and creating something new. At almost 35, I'm not scared of that anymore. I welcome it.
Alchemizing Pain Into Art
Music has always been my first love. When I stopped playing, it felt like I lost my voice.
But on this journey, I realized my voice was never gone - just buried.
The pain I carried wasn't just something to survive. It became something I could work with. I've learned to alchemize pain into music, art, and connection. To take the heaviness, the grief, and even the parts of me that almost gave up - and turn them into something meaningful. This isn't about pretending the pain didn't exist. It's about integrating it and letting it fuel something honest and powerful. I think I’m in the process of making the art I was always meant to make.
Support My Journey
If you'd like to support what I'm creating, I'm offering merch - records, shirts, tapes, and more.
I also have a donation option if you'd like to contribute directly.
Every bit helps me stay independent, helps me get back into the studio recording, collaborating, and continuing to turn this process into music, connection, and art.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here and believing in me.
I am so grateful <3
